Well, one of the reason why I'm write on this blog post using english, because this is the first time I'm write using english, on my post before, I always use Indonesian to deliver my ideas, or my statement also. Let's go to the main point!
Yesterday, (or Thursday night) I have a bad day, so bad day guys. Since morning, on the college, I have some trouble with some of my friends, and then my laptop currently not in optimal condition, it makes me so insane. Not only that, in the noon, when I'm following the Genetics class, my stomach become stomacache, I want to go toilet to poop, but I have to holding on for 45 minutes. OMG! It feels not good, guys. I'm sweat too much and then I can't focus on the lesson. I think it's day bad day. Chapter 1.
When i'm home, everything goes well, nothing happened. But in the afternoon, my mom (this is the first opener of next my unlucky day). My mom just makes me so sad, i'm starting to cry after I'm getting on my bedroom. I think that my mother doesn't love me, or just giving me a caring as a mother. I don't know why, my mom just like don't support me or just giving me a motivation during on my college time or just my stand up carrier on another college thing.
I need someone who can understand me, or just keep listening of my problem, just don't let me away. I don't have a boyfriend until now, and then I don't have a friends, or close friend. Because I have a bad experience with friendship thing. I'm betrayed, they're leaving me without any reason when I need them so much, for many times I have a bad experience with that. So, when I'm on college now, I didn't hava a close friends to talk, I'm just have a friends for hangout, going to some places, refresh my mind, or only just talking about college things.
Because I don't have a good partner, I'm just deliver my own mind, my trouble or bad thing into this blog. Since 2013, I write many things here, when everyone doesn't know that I'm a blogger, I don't want everyone know that, because I'm just a student on college who always entertain my friends with a silly jokes or something else. Deep inside of me, I feel so lonely. I don't want become crazy people, or have a bad psycology mind. I'm just to be understand by people around me.
My family doesn't show a real support for me. They're always find my mistake, or my misbehaviour. Just like I always look a bad girl in front of them. I need a real moodbooster, a person, someone, expect my God. I always pray to Him, whenever and whatever happens. But, it more comfort if I have a person who can keep me into the right way, the person who can warn me if I doing wrong thing.
So guys, I think this is closing of this post this morning. I just want to deliver my mind, of what I ffel now, I don't know what I'm supposed to do, just write here and start make a new post on this blog. I hope all of you have a good day ahead, and keep thankful for what you have, guys.
Best regards,
